So, you guys know I was a Hostess in my friend's wedding a few weeks ago.
Well, a few days before the wedding we went out to dinner with Brandis, Jason, Cecillea (the other Hostess) & a few other people to talk about our duties in the wedding.Towards the middle of dinner, me & Cecillea started sharing funny stories about our weddings, our wedding nights & our honeymoons.
And, then Matt says to Jason, "Don't be surprised if Brandis breaks out into hysterical sobs!".
He was referring to me & what happened when we got back from our honeymoon, right after my mom & step-dad dropped us off at our apartment.
The front door shut, I looked around our apartment & then burst into tears.
At that point, I didn't really know why.
Matt saw me crying & asked, "What's wrong?".
In between sobs, I said "I don't know what to do!".
We moved into our apartment the day before our wedding, so there were moving boxes everywhere & he says, "How about you grab a box & start unpacking!".
That just made me cry harder.
He kept asking me what was wrong & I kept saying that I didn't know why I was crying.
I can only imagine the thoughts going through his head. We had this fabulous wedding, an awesome honeymoon & now his wife of 7 days starts crying hysterically 2 seconds after arriving home.
He bravely asks, "Do you not want to be married to me anymore?".
Realizing that I'm probably freaking him out, I tell him that yes, I do want to be married, but that I just don't know why I'm crying.
He decides to leave me alone for a little while & goes into our bedroom to start unpacking our suitcases.
Meanwhile, I'm sitting on the couch, surrounded by 1,000,000 tissues, blankly starring at the TV.
About 30 minutes later, Matt comes out of the bedroom, sees my still crying & sits down with me. At this point, he's doing everything he can to try to figure out what's wrong.
He asks me a bazillion questions...the last one of which was "Want me to make you some toast?". I don't know what it is about toast, but that got me to quit crying & tell him yes.
So, we sat together as I ate my toast.
Once that "after cry" hiccuping subsided, I told him that I was sorry I freaked out, even though I still didn't really know why I was crying.
A short time later, we finally started unpacking some boxes.
It wasn't until a few days later that I realized the reason behind my little "breakdown".
We spent 9 months planning a wedding, got married, went on this fabulous honeymoon & then we get home & it's back to the real world.
Jobs, housework, laundry, bills.
No more wedding to plan, no more honeymoon to look forward to.
There was nothing left to plan.
Crying was just my body's way of releasing all the stress & emotions from the past 9 months.
I guess you're wondering now if Brandis cried?
Well, she did.
But, Jason had been warned, so he knew how to handle it.