October 15, 2009.

July 7th, 2006.

February 15th, 2008.

The two WORST DAYS of my entire life.

Those are the dates Matt & I lost our babies.

With our first loss, I was 11 weeks along.

With our second loss, I was 6 weeks along.

Today is Pregnancy & Infant Loss Remembrance Day.

And, on this day (well, really...EVERYDAY), I think about my babies.

Babies that Matt & I created out of so much love & so much want.

In the days after both miscarriages, I didn't want to get out of bed.

There were times that I had to remind myself to breathe.

The pain was so raw, that I thought I would never feel happy again.

Your life never goes back to normal after you lose a child. You just learn a new normal...where your baby is never far from your thoughts or your heart.

So, on this day, if you've ever lost a baby/child, I'm praying for you.

Know that you are NOT alone.

There are people out there who understand.